23.8.03
back from watching homerun. both hilarious and touching. nice! :) and im still wondering why hardly anyone in class seems interested in watching it. *sigh* i love ho wenlong's voice! so much of a difference after it broke. mesmerizing. dad took this seat nx to this guy. and that guy...i saw him at the foodcourt...he plays basketball and he's cute. what a coincidence to be seated nx to him. oh well, i mean, i could have seated nx to him. haha. kinda wasted. if onli i had walked in first. saw a junior there too. coincidence number two.
abt five mins after the show started, some caucasians came in. haha. everyone was like commenting on them. reminds me of the ad of homerun where a caucasian said sth like, "it's one of the best movies i've ever seen".
sis bought tchrs day gifts today. i resisted the idea. dont noe what to get. and if i start taking my time to ponder, it's going to take forever and get on everyone's nerves. and, even if i knew what to buy, i wouldnt buy them in the presence of dad and sis. hehx. ;)
did the ss mock test all over again. like finally. it was totally exhausting...did one qn, went out, came home, did another qn, packed stuff, slacked... it's absolutely no fun doing qns that you know both the questions and the answers. no fun in anticipating the qns. no thrill. the last structured essay, my patience flagged out and i just rewrote the first part and for the rest of the essay, i wrote a footnote to mrs aw, asking her to refer back to the original copy of the mock test..haha. my handwriting was seriously going curvy and couldnt take writing anymore. so...whatever, at least i did it. :)
sad that i didnt go for the arts awareness thing today. supposed to go support delia. supposed to do so many things. supposed to be a fun day. supposed. but nonetheless, staying home wasnt all that bad. at least i made myself useful.
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22.8.03
can feel myself encased in this layer of dust. been clearing up the entire study table and it seems like everything's almost packed away. except for the essentials of the O-level student. even that mum wants to pack into a box. like hello, there's still a month more...i dont need to study for one month? and in one month, it's going to be the prelims? ha. if onli i could quit studying for the whole coming month....woohoo...i'll just shock myself to death when the prelim results arrive. cant wait to move actualli. to embrace a new beginning and new life.
watched jj last night. his singing totally rox. if only he had the looks, he'd be the one. he sang a song which is so prone to going off-key but he did it so impeccably! way to go for a singaporean! :D
watching homerun tonight i guess. cant see why our class is so 'enthusiastic' abt the show. there's still the combined humanities test if we're not going. whatever...watch it with dad and sis then. it's been a while.
hey dearie, thks for calling. :)
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hey yash, go to the diary once u read this ya? tried calling you but u werent home yet. and was pretty freaked while the dial tone kept ringing..haha.
there's still that feeling of having so much of the unspeakables that sometimes it gets pretty agonizing that i seek desperately for something to say. just to get the voice out of the mouth. wonder if this is normal.
feels detached again. urgh. keeps fluctuating. on and off. wonder which is for real. but thank god for making it happen. for this special arrangement. though i dont appreciate it as much as in the past. nonetheless, it's heartwarming.
note: the two paras above refer to two separate issues.
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20.8.03
how wonderful. mum's in an awful mood. she started nagging at me and i immediately did the disappearing act. wth. tty was in a bad mood in sch. now, after coming home, still haf to face another person who's pulling a long face. was in the midst of doing maths and just ran off halfway. idiotic.
there's still summary to do. after a long day at school. oh well.
sometimes, i seriously feel like getting away from all these. no wonder dad feels that way too. it's inevitable i guess.
oh. there was this damn moth in my bathroom. switched on the lights and shut the door. then this huge black thing started hovering ard the ceiling above my head. freaked out like some dumbass and ran out immediately. [thank goodness for the fact that i hadnt stripped. haha] why do insects love to hide in bathrooms? i wonder. not like it's particularly beautiful or anything. now the moth's in my sis' room! haha! and she forced me to get this book near the moth before i could use the comp. urgh~ so cheater man. so...for the sake of the precious comp, i summoned all my courage to get myself near that damnit moth. totally eew. so so big? reminds me of koc.
and this morning, was looking at this ad in the newspaper which had this chameleon smack in the middle. i am scared of them, like duh...and some pics are able to conjure this rising feeling in me which is as good as what i feel when i see a real one. and i thot the ad looked rather artificial, so it was fine. could even stare at the chameleon. just then, i looked at its eyes. migoodness! so damn huge and round. total yux. my sis said i looked petrified [as in the harry potter kind of petrify]. so now u noe..the easiest way to scare me is by showing me a chameleon. u'll get me freaked, i guarantee you. haha. but then again, pls dont try! *winces*
loneliness is sinking in so so deep that everything seems so surreal.
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19.8.03
so many new things are happening lately. wonder why. must be written in one of those pages in destiny's book...
was walking home and this guy was jogging. he came from behind so i didnt take notice of his presence. was kinda distracted thinking abt the ice cream i just bought, haha. then he came running past me and he happened to pant when he was exactly parallel to me. was like, **"HUR~"..run run run...**whoa. totally shocked me lor. didnt even realise he was behind me. how can one run so silently man...and suddenly appear nx to me and pant so loudly. migoodness. my soul almost flew out of my body man. scared like some shit.
i was so dumb during bio prac today. aiks. stupidly poured the contents of a just-underwent-benedict's-test testtube onto my finger. painful like hell. there was this whole red line across my finger but thankfully it didnt stay long. now i realise how bad emotional hurt is compared to physical hurt.
dont know what to type. bored.
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18.8.03
We Are One
Two very different people
Too scared to get along
Till two hearts beat together
Underneath one sun
One very special moment
Can turn a destiny
And what some would say
Could never change
Has changed for you and me
::Chorus::
Cos it's all, it's all in the way you look through your eyes
And when all is said and done
All of the fear and all of the lies are
Not hard to overcome
It's all in the way you look at it
That makes you strong
We were two
Now we are one
We are two very different people
So much to overcome
So why care for one another
When there's so much to be done
Cos sometimes it's necessary
Just look how far we've come
You could say my friend that
It's the end
Or a new tale has begun
::Repeat Chorus::
One moment in time
Is all the time we need
Just to make a difference
To make it better for you and for me
It you just believe
Oh yeah
Just open your eyes
::Repeat Chorus::
Oh yeah, oh yeah
We were two
Now we are one
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moodswings were pretty bad during lessons today, but still managed to keep them in check..
almost got myself into hot soup after sch. went to the washroom. talked to fish and got kinda excited after that. ran down to the foyer and dorcas lai was sitting there waiting for someone. i was almost positively sure that my blouse was tucked in cos i just came out from the washroom. ran across the foyer happily though at the same time, i had this nagging feeling that my blouse wasnt tucked in [it's the paranoia that bugs me everytime i see her]. and sure enough, it wasnt. [apparently i kept tugging at my blouse while talking to fish and inadvertently pulled the whole front out.] guess who came out from the G.O.? mrs lee. woohoo. i happily ran past her with the front of my blouse flapping against the wind. [k, that sounds pretty obscene] aniwae, i guess i ran too quickly that none of them could have a chance to say anything. hehx. thank goodness. close shave. dont wanna get booked by dorcas again man.
im feeling so bad abt mrs rupa. damnit man. her instructions are falling on deaf ears. on MY deaf ears. i completely didnt hear, or rather, i clean forgot, abt the SCGS paper she wanted me to collect. somehow i dont seem to recall. im neglecting my responsibilities. that's awesome. whatever. mrs rupa, im juz not in the right state of mind and there are some things that you'll never find out...cos i cant bring myself to explain.
so many chaps of bio to study. in a really lazy mood now. aiyar.........why must we study?!?!
falling in love with westlife's "we are one" and "miss you"....and no, westlife is not not nice. hmmpf. :P
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